Happy Monday, and Happy Birthday to me! Today and I am 34 years old. Wow, thats crazy to say. Turning 30 was without a doubt the hardest. I hated the sound of it, and I officially started to feel old! It also might have something to do with the fact that my mother was 30 while I was in my teens, and it seemed so old! Saying you’re 29 doesn’t sound half as bad as saying you’re 30, or so I thought. Fast forward four years and my 30’s have been my best years yet.
My thirties have brought me so many amazing things – Marriage, my second child, a new home, great friendships, amazing opportunities, a job I love….which all immensely bring me so much love and joy. However, what has really made my thirties the best years yet is the relationship I have with MYSELF.
When I turned thirty something changed inside me. I’m still not sure if it was age, wisdom, or just plain happiness but I never felt more free, more alive, and more comfortable in my own skin. And guess what, That little devil that had lived on my shoulder for 29 years that told me very often that I wasn’t good enough…was no longer there!
See, in our twenties so often we get stuck playing the comparison game – she is engaged and I’m not! They just bought a house, we can hardly make rent. They just got promoted at work, and I’m at a dead end job. They are already having child, should we be? Well, in your thirties you really learn to live in your own lane, and its sooo FREAKING NICE! You embrace your life, on your terms.
My thirties have brought me so much success – not in that old school definition but in the small victories, in how far I have come personally! Success isn’t measured by your income, by your looks, or by the material things you have. When I was finally able to see that, I was able to enjoy the amazing things I have accomplished. I have created two amazing babies, I have started a business that financially helps support my family. I am hardworking, a loving mom & wife, honest and happy – now that’s SUCCESS!
The thirties have allowed me to love myself – never thought that would be the case. I love my sense of humor. I love that I can focus on myself and not spend time and energy worrying about what others think. I exercise every morning to be healthy, not to see a smaller number on the scale, or fit into a small size. These past few years I learned that the poor choices I made in my twenties don’t define me. I put myself first because I now know I am worth it. When you start loving yourself and find peace within you – FREEDOM.
Each Birthday I take some time to reflect on the year ahead. Looking back on this past year, I can honestly say it has been one of the best years of my life. I have never been healthier, happier, or felt more love! I know this freedom I have found in my thirties didn’t come without a lot of heart break, insecurities, and personal struggles. Knowing this makes me love where I am today even better. So if you are new to the thirties club, and it scared the sh*t out of you like it did me. Hold on tight because these could be your best years yet!
Cheers to another year! Cheers to all the possibilities that will come, the adventures, life lessons, and SUCCESS!
I want to thanks Brendan Pike Films for absolutely seeing my vision for these pictures.